well relationships....
hahaha.... i used to be the queen of relationships, a new love bout every month! but then i met my boyfriend dylan....
we had seen each other around the place at parties and stuff, all of our friends were like party mates. the kind that you don't call each other up to go out for coffee or hang out, but when you see all of each other at a party they're all inseperable!
then one night we went to the michael perry reserve to get scared and it turns out that dyaln and his friends were there too!!! there had been thses murders up there and we all decided to walk up to the quarry where a boys body was found, it was like one in the morning and i was shitting myself. i had a crush on dylan for like six months before this but wasn't sure if he wanted a peice of me?!?
im not one for rejection you see! well anyway i was scared and i asked dylan to hold my hand..... nothing else happened just some cute hand holding, but i desperately wanted him to make a move.... nothing! from that night on when ever i saw dylan at parties i got the maddest rush of butterflies!
so four or so months passed, it was this guys 18th (one of dylan's best friends) i was flirting with dylan all night and he was flirting with me too! we were in the "dance room" and the smoke machine pored out this huge cloud of smoke and all of a sudden dylan kissed me! IT WAS LUSH, AS LUSH COULD BE!!!! the smoke cleared and all of a sudden there was some extreamly angry red faced girl standing in front of us ordering me to MOVE! i later discovered that her name was sacha and it was his girlfriend! i was devo....
another six months passed.... it was now my best friends 18th EMILY!!!! and dylan was there
i still had those crazy butterflies for him, and i couldn't explain it! i never got all pergigaty about guys! i was always in control! not with dylan, not at all!
two weeks after dylan's best friend steve and my best mate emily were hooking up, so i asked steve if dylan was still with that girl?!? and he wasn't and apparently little dylan had been asking about me, but he was too shy and embarrssed to get in contact with me cos of what happened! so i did the only thing i thought i could do..... i messaged him.... hehe...
we met up the following night. this time not drunk, niether of us had attachments. it was just him and me! well and steve.... we had to go to the parade and help steve find a new phone!
but dylan gave me a lift home and kissed me goodnight (in his eever so romantic rx7.... mmmmmm.....) and it was like fucking fireworks exploded all over my body! i couldn't even move let alone open the car door and walk up to my bloody house! but despite him probably thinking i was a tad strange we did arrange to meet up on the weekend!
ok it was saturday night and i was getting ready at emily's house for the big night! of course i busted my arse to try and look hot for him and em assured me that i did a pretty god dam good job of it. steve and dylan came and picked us up in the rx7's, and we set off to alberts house to crank it and get high! (on life of course) see there was one very big problem though! i was only 17 amd i didn't have a fake id at this moment in time! so i had to try and convince dylan to come back to emily's house with me instead of going to town with all of his friends! mwahahahahaha.... SUCCESS
so we went to emilys house and watched dvd's and then...................
it was the most amazing night i had ever spent with anyone! it was so perfect, it was like i was in love yet i had really only just started to get to know the guy! i never got like that with guys, but dylan, there was something magical about him and the feeling i got when we were together. we spent the entire night just talking and holding each other.... it was the best night of my life, one i will forever remember!
well a couple of nights later we decided to make it official! dylan and i were finally an item!
this was now almost a year and a half ago
the times we have shared are going to forever in my heart.
but it wasn't all smooth sailing.....
we have broken up three times. the longest and latest time was for four months and we have now been back together for almost a month. it was my doing (all the breakups). i had never really had real emotions like this, well i did, i think once but i was played and stomped on for a long time and then i found out about something crule and terrible in my so called "happy family" it made my perspective on relationships go majorly pear shaped!
but the time recently spent away from my darling dylan truely has made me realise that he is the person, my soulmate, my love, my best friend! i am going to grow old by his side, i am going to have kids with him, and we are going to share both laughter and tears. i am going to spend the rest of my life with him!
some people spend the entire life searching for their "special one" and never find them. not only have i found him, but he has found me too.
so anyone who doesn't feel as though there is hope for them, don't give up.... there is always hope!
lily
xoxoxox
And he don't or won't dance so I usually go out to raves and things by myself, but thats cool, I'm used to it now...other than that I do believe we are pretty well suited and I trust him with anything and everything, especially my sensitive heart...and he puts up with my shit so he must be worth it!!! 
